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METAMORPHOSIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN MESSY
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METAMORPHOSIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN MESSY

for the ones dealing with the pain of change

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Grace E. Kelley
Aug 22, 2024
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red and black butterfly perched on red flower during daytime
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what if 
I’m only a mess
right now?

what if this
is not
forever?

what if I’m the caterpillar 
wound up in a chrysalis 
my outsides disappearing &
all that I once thought of as ‘me’
has been liquified.

how vulnerable!

I could be squashed this very minute
& no one would even be able to identify
what I once was.

but given time—

once my cells have rearranged
& organized themselves anew—

once I can fill my wings with blood,
until the fragile becomes firm—

then I’ll stretch out in the sun until 
all that was unsightly & grotesque moments ago

has now become the thing
that makes me capable
of flight. 


---metamorphosis has always been messy 

**BEFORE YOU GO, I AM GOING TO BE HOSTING A POETRY READING/WRITING SESSION AT THE WHOLENESS & WELLNESS CONFERENCE AT THE REFUGE AT LA FORET IN BLACK FOREST COLORADO ON SEPTEMBER 15. CLICK HERE FOR MORE DETAILS AND TO REGISTER! **

I don’t know why I’ve imagined I could change without pain.

Maybe you have to—be it a deconstruction journey, a relational upset, a new job, a new baby, a new path in life—changes big and small can shake us up, rattle us around, and cause us to feel very, very afraid.

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